Kamis, 09 Februari 2012

Don't You Remember

When will I see you again? You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said.
No final kiss to seal anything. I had no idea of the state we were in.

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness

And a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head !!!


But don't you remember? Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before
. Baby, please remember me once more!!!

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I would roam
. More I do, the less I know.

But I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness .
And a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head


I gave you the space so you could breathe. I kept my distance so you would be free.
And hope that you find the missing piece . To bring you back to me....
Why don't you remember? Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before
Baby, please remember me once more
When will I see you again?

Nothing..

Bad mood!!
Wanita memang lebih sering bad mood. Apalagi saat PMS.
Gak salah kalau kata temen gw " hal-hal yang paling buas adalah harimau dan cewe PMS".

But, abaikan sj pembahasan PMS di atas. Gw gak lagi pengen ngebahas itu!!!

Gw bingung bagaimana cara menjaga hubungan baik dng seseorang di masa lalu yg pada dasarnya dia sahabat baik :(
Kehilangan nya dri sosok sebagai sahabat aja udh nyedihin, apalagi kalau sampai hubungan memburuk.

Konsekuensi nya sih emang, ketika 4thn yg lalu memutuskan utk mencampur sayang persahabatan dng sayang personal.
Gak usah kali yah gw jabarin kedekatan bathin kita dlu sbgai best friend yg bgtu kuat, kedekatan keluarga yg baik bgt, skrg gw pikir udh d ujung tanduk.

Padahal kita udh mutusin jln sndiri2 dari 3thn yg lalu dng komitmen "kita msh BF". Tapi kenyataannya SUSAH bo......

Dan puncaknya mungkin beberapa bulan terakhir, ketika dia mulai aktif "menggangu" gw di bbm. Gw keras salah, gw diemin jg ya gw keganggu.
Alasannya, gak mau memutuskan silaturahmi. Tapi gak gini juga kali ya. Padahal dia udh punya pasangan baru loh!!!!! Ckckck..

Gw beraniin remove dia, dia invite gw lagi. Berteman lagi, ganggu lagi, remove lagi, diinvite lgi! Entah udh berapa kali kek gtu :(

Sampai beberapa menit yg lalu gw remove dia lg, krn gw rasa dia udh keterlaluan bgt ganggu gw!! Sedih, dia sahabt gw loh, dari high school, tp ya gmna lagi.
Sekarang gw rasa, semuanya udh memburuk. Gak ada yg bisa diselamatkan dr hubungan baik kami dulu.

Gak ada hubungan persahabatan yg murni dari persahabatn pria dan wanita. Semacam kamuflase, dan boom waktu yg siap meledak sewaktu-waktu yg berujung dengan pernyataan " gw suka sama lo!!!".

I've loosing him, not only as a couple, but also as a good friend.